999999.m4a (Remix)

I wake up, check the mirror, pick a face
Different person, different time, different place
I’m a chameleon, fading in the wall
I answer the phone but I’m not there at all
I tell a joke, I play the part just right
Switching the channels like a flickering light
I’m here, I’m there, I’m scattered on the floor
I don’t know who I am anymore.
​(Chorus)
And I’m living double, splitting in two
Doing what you want, doing what they do
But there’s a quiet scream underneath the skin
‘Cause I’m losing the race that I’m trying to win
I want to be one, I want to be whole
I want to be true, deep in my soul
But I’m hiding in the static, and I’m losing the track
I’m living double, and I can’t take it back.
​(Verse 2)
I nod my head, I smile, I agree
But none of these versions belong to me
I talk in circles, I keep it all inside
Just looking for a corner where I can hide
If I stop, if I breathe, if I show you the truth
Will you look away? Will you stay? Will you soothe?
It’s a tangled wire, it’s a heavy weight
Running on empty, and it’s getting late.
​(Chorus)
‘Cause I’m living double, splitting in two
Doing what you want, doing what they do
But there’s a quiet scream underneath the skin
‘Cause I’m losing the race that I’m trying to win
I want to be one, I want to be whole
I want to be true, deep in my soul
But I’m hiding in the static, and I’m losing the track
I’m living double, and I can’t take it back.
​(Bridge)
Just one thing here, just one thing there
But I’m dissolving into the air
I’m tired of the mask, I’m tired of the lie
I just want to be me before the well runs dry
Just one thing here...
Yeah, I just want to be one thing here.
​(Chorus)
‘Cause I’m living double, splitting in two
Doing what you want, doing what they do
But there’s a quiet scream underneath the skin
‘Cause I’m losing the race that I’m trying to win
I want to be one, I want to be whole
I want to be true, deep in my soul
But I’m hiding in the static, and I’m losing the track
I’m living double, and I can’t take it back.
​(Outro)
Stop the double...
Just want to be me.
Yeah, just one thing.
(Fade out)